sembreak sentiments and other not so important details of my life

i cleaned my room yesterday (heavy cleaning that is).. the outcome gave me the feeling of summer break and/or new year giving me an urge to do something productive or whatever this sembreak. i looked around, sorting all the papers in my desk and put them into "exams and quizzes", "handouts", "AUL stuffs", "scratch" category.. neatly printed outside of the brown envelopes. I found my 2007 diary and started reading, the first year experience of my relationship with mark has grown after all after 2 years.. nostalgic feeling crept into my nape.. that year was when the doldrums had endless gigs and i was still a chemical engineering student.. i threw that diary along with all the other junks in my room.. then im wondering if im going do the same thing to this account after 2-3 years.. haha. it was fun then, but its a different fun now. i maybe living differently now or not but everytime i cleaned my room while its raining outside, im still the sentimental airhead you never know.

my sembreak now is like the feeling of reming days, heavy rains and gloomy skies.. except my sister weng is not here (not yet though..) and there is electricity! im planning to spend my sembreak reading good books, (i already finished jessica zafra's Womenagerie and Other Tales from the Front,)... watching all movies of nightmare on elm street (courtesy of mark) and facebook-ing! im also hunting for horror punk music more.. i just realized that BYOP is one. :) currently downloading Misfits whole discography. caught myself liking the idea of fun of iggy pop- which is to kill everyone.. connecting it to my classmate raymund's idea of rampaging our whole school hehehe... and all his zombie ideas.. connecting it with jemina pearl's addiction to zombie.. ^^
i also want to learn more about dreams.. been having weird dreams lately.. mostly about birth controls, creepy babies and my friend's pregnancy (causing me to decrease my libido.....sometimes)....dream within dreams and other weird dreams.. . i also plan to not drink alcohol that often this semestral break (no more budget).. and will be back on making music again (pending gigs on the 26th and 28th on donsol).. im planning to write songs!!!! hang-out with mark more, and of course with ate weng :) thrift shopping for clothes and books, downloading worthy songs and food trip! im going to miss my classmates and friends but this is the ME time.. everyone should have the ME time.. and time for the things you've been neglecting because you are busy with school and office work.. your family perhaps?

so there.. i missed this shit. :)

practice what you preach bitch!

pevi, let and I went to the burger stand and started killing time by smoking our fave marlboro gold. "burger stand" is just outside our school from across the street where students of AUL usually go to because it is where all the delicious street foods are.. calamares, mami, goto, fishball, cheesedog, burger and...yosi. it is also where all the students who smoke bystand and its really cute to see them all because you can see the increasing rate of college smokers! (magandang gawan ng case sudy)

Anyway, the three of us found our spot... and then this old woman started asking me "what year are u in" in a tone that is very annoying and quite loud than usual.. a voice that is authoritative (the voice i fucking hate most) and with matching raised eyebrows. so, the typical me answered her back with a big "WHY?"

She repeated her question with an even louder voice : "I said what year are u in??!!" and then I answered her again with the question "WHY?" and then she said: BCUZ IM A CLINICAL INSTRUCTOR IN COLLEGE OF NURSING!!! AND I DONT WANT NURSING STUDENTS TO SMOKE!!!! (she's fucking hysterical)

pevi and i said: di naman kami tga college of nursing eh! (hehehe) at saka po hindi na ako MINOR!! ( and i want to add: at kung OO man wala kang pakealam!! tangina mong bitch ka!! hahaha)..

and then she said: LAHAT NG NURSING DITO AYOKONG MAKITANG NAGYOYOSI HA!!!!!

and then she got up, dropped her cigarette butt of marlboro and walked away..

BITCH!!

i miss blogspot!

oh i miss blogging! it's just that i'm more active now in fb.
and of course, im preoccupied with school stuff because it's the final! and lots of things happened in between.. i wish i could tell it all here. but i promised to update you with my thoughts and happenings soon, sembreak perhaps?

im just logging in here once in a while to check out jemina perl's updates but it seems she's not updating her blog either. so there! see you soon.

bipolar

my friend kring told me that i have a bipolar disorder. it's a mood disorder causing you to shift from one extreme mood to another.. but of course i know she's not serious in the same manner im telling her that she's an anti-social, neither of us is a professional psychologist, we're still both a student.

anyway, i know where she gets the idea of me having a bipolar disorder. because everytime we drink i became this jolliest person you'll meet for the first few drinks and then i shifted into this emotional drunk bastard cursing every person i hate in this world. hahaha. how pathetic.

that's why today, i decided to stay in the house the whole day and watch porn.. it's a joke. (laugh)
i watched 'sid and nancy' (finally!).. it was an Ok film.. and 'ladies and gentlemen, the fabulous stains' an 1981 film that really kick ASS! dude i love it. ^^ it was really really awesome.! you go ahead and watch it. NOW! haha.

and so, my love life's kind of B-O-R-I-N-G right now. and i still have a crush on Sid vicious.
and i have still have lots of paper works for one of my major subject which i hate and like at the same time.. but mostly hate.. so i decided to download old films and have a movie marathon instead of cracking my head doing 3 pending lab reports, chapter 1 and 2 of my proposal and midterm projects. arrrrghhh! why dont you just KILL ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hahaha. :( (: <-- sad and happy. hahahaha. GRRRRRR!!!!!!!

i miss you.

i saw this pictures while i was browsing through my albums in friendster and I suddenly misses this shit..

I miss the doldrums... this picture was taken May 30 2009, our last gig before ate weng went back to manila. I miss gig-ing in Naga. I miss the gigs. period.

I miss the van, the free beers and sisig, band friends, the jamming, the wasted and sleepless nights. i miss the fun and the jokes, the staying up until 6 am in the morning just to wait for the 1st trip. i miss sleeping in the ordinary bus, empty stomach, smelly and oily. i miss the singing and the dancing.. haaayz.. ;( im still looking forward to experience this.

i miss ate weng..

i miss mark...

it's not me, it's you

listen to this whenever you're alone, specially when you hate something or someone but just can't express it. I love LILY ALLEN!!! ...and i hate everything else ;)

if you still haven't heard the new song of Jemina Pearl together with Iggy Pop in Jemina's myspace, it's your loss. you better click this now! I HATE PEOPLE

once upon a wednesday

whats got to do when your teacher can't meet you in class? we PARTEEY! haha...

at grilleria (batman!)

at peñaranda park haha


one of the boys ^^


i don't know if it's just me, but the "jamming" seems following me everywhere.. haha..

and i quoted the donnas "im gonna party till the day i die"